It was 2013 when my health first began to crash. After several years, a slew of tests, and more attempted treatments than I can count, we’re still trying to figure out what exactly is wrong and how to treat it.
The best days have been filled with optimism, mostly hinging on a positive outcome.
The worst days have brought me to the end of myself as I’ve wondered if I’ll ever find relief.
Most days exist somewhere in between.
I chose & Also for my blog because I’m not good at contradictions. It’s hard for me to hold things in tension, to live in between the pain that is now and the redemption that is coming.
There are hard days, and also there is joy.
There is pain, and also there is laughter.
There is exhaustion, and also there is rest.
There is despair, and also there is hope.
They say to write what you know, and right now, what I know is a body that seems to be failing me. But I also know that I need hope, and sometimes the best way for me to find it is to write my way toward it.
Call this a testimony—not the kind that tells of God’s miraculous healing, but the kind that tells of God’s presence in the suffering. The kind that raises a fist to the darkness and finds joy in the midst of sorrow.
The kind that sits in the tension, looks the pain straight in the face, and says, & Also . . .
If you’re interested in a little bit more about me, I’m a recent college graduate with a degree in Social and Environmental Justice, and I work as Program Coordinator for Nashville A Rocha. I’m an introvert, and I love words, both reading and writing them. I also love hot tea, good music, bacon, and laughter.
When I was in high school, I did a thing where I wore a dress every day for a year to raise awareness about and money to end human trafficking. Three months after the project ended, I was given an opportunity to co-write a book about it, which released last year. You can find out more about that here.
I’m sure glad you stopped by. I hope you’ll wander around and make yourself at home. And while you're here, I'd love to hear from you.
Photo by Whitney Boyd Photography. If you're anywhere close to Tarpon Springs, FL and need some photos, she's one of the best.