Peter replied, “Man, I don’t know what you’re talking about!” Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word that the Lord had spoken to him: “Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me you will disown me three times.” And he went outside and wept bitterly. Luke 22:60-62 (emphasis added)
What do you think was in the eyes of Christ as he turned and looked at Peter? There He was, getting ready to die in Peter’s place, and Peter denied Him. Yet I doubt that there was anything but love in His eyes. I imagine that His gaze was full of mercy and grace, full of compassion undeserved. And it was the love that Jesus and Peter shared that drove Peter to weep and repent. He cared deeply because of how deeply he loved Jesus and how deeply Jesus loved him.
I’m constantly amazed when God chooses to look at me in the same way. I’m unlovely, but He loves me. I’m unworthy, but He makes me righteous. I am faithless, but He is faithful. And when I fall, He looks at me with the same love and compassion. A compassion that moves me to repentance. My sins nailed Him to that cross. It was because of my wrongdoing that an innocent man stumbled down a dirt road carrying a cross on His back. But it wasn’t just my sin. It was His love. Because He loves me, He laid down His life for me. A love greater than any I have ever known. And I am grateful. His sacrifice and His covenant make me new. Not because I am worthy, but because He is good, and He loves me. And guess what? The same is true for you. The door is open.
Jesus Christ, You bled Your love, laid down Your self, and gave me life, In naked shame you hung and you were lifted high, So here I lay in awe and wonder. I am afraid, for no one’s every sacrificed and loved me this way, So on my face I fall under your heavy grace, Here I lay in awe and wonder. -Leeland, I Wonder